Feeling like the worst mum ever

Anyone else feel like they’re at a different stage to their friends? I’m bridesmaid for friend in a few years. I’ve missed all the other ‘bridesmaid’ gatherings as they have been in the evening and with a new born I’m not leaving her at bedtime. Today all of us bridesmaids and my daughter (4 months) went to her venue. It’s a barn conversation so no lighting or heating, it’s also about an hour away. My daughter spent most of the journey there and back crying and I couldn’t help her as I was driving, my friend was with her in the back. She screamed at the venue the whole time as it was cold and rainy and no where to change or feed her except my car. I feel like the worst mum in the world for even going in the first place. We then went for a coffee where she was trying to feed / sleep but the girls were so loud she kept getting distracted/woken up so was so upset again. We’re home now after 5 hours out the house and a little cry from me on the way home when we were alone as I honestly feel like the worst mum ever. I also feel like I had no time to join in the conversations as I was so busy with my daughter, even if I did join in I couldn’t relate to them at all as none of them have babies and they just wanted a fun day out 😭