Anyone talk please

I was cheated on and I just found out it was way more that I ever could have imagined I thought it was a year now I realize it's been the past two years if not more

I've found this time 6 dating sites, 3 snapchats, 3 hide apps

The last time his phone was stolen so I seen his account history and he tried to blame it on them when now I see it is and always was him.

I am married with children

I don't want anyone else

half of me doesn't want him half of me does

He wants to move forward but honestly I think I am done.

I don't know what to do.

My life is ruined my childrens lives are ruined hell my daughter was dying and he was still out cheating

This is just so ridiculous. I just don't know how to handle this

What do you do when you don't want to leave but you're done

Leaving isnt going to be hard its just I didn't want to have him not love me but it's clear he never did.