Abnormal pap smear 6 months ago neg for hvp

I'm going today for my 6 month check up for another pap smear. Last time I had ACS-us and epithelial cell abnormal but tested neg for hvp. I'm so nervous and kinda scared. I been dreading this day for a while. I cant stop thinking about if I do have precancerous cells or cancer that I'll never be able to have my own baby and never get to feel the kicks etc. I pray everything will be fine. But I got a gut feeling something isnt right. All I ever wanted is to have a baby but after 3 miscarriages and now this idt itll ever be possible for me😓😭