Just need to vent - 10 w MMC with new endometriosis diagnosis

I had a missed miscarriage and ended up with a D&C a week ago on Wednesday 11/20 (followed by another D&C 11/21 and laparoscopy 11/24 🤦‍♀️). My doctor put me back on my oral contraceptive to “calm down” my previously undiagnosed endometriosis. He cleared us to begin trying immediately after my last pill of the 2 week period. I started the pill 11/25 and will finish it 12/9.

I’m also so worried that my body is going to be so out of whack from this miscarriage, multiple surgeries, and 2 week stint on birth control that I’m going to take forever to conceive again.

I just want the immense physical and emotional pain to subside and I want a baby 💔