Failed

I’m pretty sure I failed again this month I know I shouldn’t beat myself up about not being pregnant but I’m so tired of trying just to be disappointed I want to be a mom and the fact that I’m not getting pregnant makes me feel inadequate I know it’s not him he already has three kids I am tired of being referred to as a step mom and not having any say I want my own and just feel like it will never happen and it’s making me really depressed