breaking up

i’ve been with my fiancé for almost 2 years now. we’re expecting in march. our whole relationship has been one thing after another. first he didn’t like my dog, which i understood because he was very aggressive. i rehomed him with a trainer that specializes in aggression. that was taken care of. then it’s i’m too needy and he wants space, okay i understand. i can be a lot at first. i love hard and fast, to some it may feel like smothering so i gave him a week without contacting him. well he cheated on me then. i broke up with him, but then we got back together after talking the situation out. i trust him, i truly do. i know most people say once a cheater always a cheater, but this isn’t a case of that. after that we’ve had issues building my trust back, and me feeling important and like a priority. he hasn’t worked almost our whole relationship, i have full time. i got fired a few month ago because i was unable to work due to issues with this pregnancy. so i expected him to pick up his slack. to get a job, anything. he’s been putting applications in and what not but he wasn’t getting anywhere. to me it seemed he was being too picky with stuff. he would say he can’t do this or that because his back would hurt him and stuff like that, which i tried to be understanding because i need him to keep the job for at least until i can go back to work and that would be along time to be in pain. well during this time he did get a few interviews. he also helps his gma with some small things occasionally here and there. one day he freaked out on me because our room was a mess and he was “out working” (aka he’s referring to him going to 2 interviews and helping his gma 3 days in a row) and i hadn’t cleaned. he said he didn’t want to be with me because i wasn’t going to be a good house wife. mind you the mess was ALL his cups and HIS clothes that he refuses to put into a hamper, but regardless i have been on bed rest since 5 weeks due to threaten miscarriage because of a subchronic hemorrhage. not only that, we have never discussed me being a house wife, and he never even mentioned to me that he’d like me to clean the room! but fine whatever. i told him if he wants to leave then that’s fine. he said he didnt actually want to break up but wants me to understand that he isnt going to live like that. (uh i guess clean your after yourself then pal??) so after all that i start making sure i’m cleaning up ALL my stuff, never leaving a cup or plate on the side table, never leaving clothes on the floor, always making sure the dishes are done, but guess who doesn’t even throw away his empty cans?? Now he finally has a job, he starts tuesday, and i’m pumped. but it constantly seems like i have to fight to get any kind of attention. he will not wake up until 1:30, go to the bathroom for 30 minutes, and then will play on his video games from 2-9/10. after hell get off and eat, play a movie and lay in bed. he doesn’t ask how i feel, if i’d like anything to eat, not a thank you for keeping anything clean, not a back rub, nothing. and if i bring up the fact i feel like he doesn’t want to be around me then he gets PISSED and says i need to as for attention, or to be made to feel special because it apart of being an adult. but when i do ask for attention he literally just watches videos on youtube on his phone. ugh. i’m just so tired of being a second class to him. i love him with my whole heart, and i want to have my family with him but i’m at my end. i can’t do it anymore. i want to be with someone who WANTS to go out of their way to make sure i know i’m appreciated, loved, and special to them! i know he isn’t cheating, but i wish i would’ve just stayed gone when he did. thanks for letting me vent💚