porn!!!

so my mans watches porn, and that doesn’t bother me. i know men do that, and that’s fine. (before anyone hates, this post is more about how it makes me feel and not me saying my man should stop. i don’t think he should stop; it’s completely normal and that’s fine. it just makes me uncomfortable because i’ve never been one to watch porn or masturbate. it’s uncomfortable to me because i’m unfamiliar with it). what bothers me is the fact that he paid for a month of porn on that one site where you can pay to watch it from specific people. it makes me feel like there’s something physically wrong with me that he can’t get past and that he finds perfect on the other girl. again, PLEASE no hate. this is my insecurity and i’m completely aware of it. i just don’t know how to get past it.