Idk how to feel.....God help me

Where do I begin.....I am a 27 year old woman and I feel like my life is spiraling out of control. I just left a hectic job that did not appreciate my worth. I moved in with my AMAZING boyfriend who is so supportive. I moved anticipating a good job and getting the hours I need....that went down south quick. I’m not getting the hours I need, I have no healthcare coverage, money is running short, my anxiety is to the roof, anxiety and panic attacks weekly. Bills don’t stop and I had to receive help from my parents. I feel defeated, I feel like I’m about to lose my mind. I am always sad and down. It’s to the point I have to put on a smile for my boyfriend and his family. They are such great people and I love them like they are my own family. It’s seems everything that could go wrong did. I ask God for guidance and I’ve applied for jobs everywhere!!!!’ Jobs even out of my degree track. My brain never stops and I can’t sleep!! For friends and family that know me. I LOVE to sleep!!!! My boyfriend works two jobs to provide and I am most thankful but I can’t help but feel like a failure because I can’t help him like I want.....I feel like my light has left me. No, I am not suicidal but I don’t have the will to really live. Day in and day out I’m in a fog until I have to go into worth. I have no passion left in me. I enjoy working with my kiddos but I have to muster up a smile to give to them. I just don’t know what to do.....😓😢😰😣