Suicide

A lot of changes have happened recently I broke up with my boyfriend of four years, started falling for my best friends started dating him for a week then told him we just need to be friends.

Because I know right now with all the shit that’s been going through my head I would just push him away even more.

I’ve already relapsed on cutting and I’m so close to taking pills like I used too.

I mental health is fucking shot I’m sick of feeling everything I just feel numb.

But I hide it, of course I don’t want to die sometimes I get the urge too. Please help I’m scared I’ll end up in a mental hospital