Partner doesn’t want baby

I am currently 12w6d today and my partner ever since I told him I was pregnant is adamant abortion is the only option and he hopes I pick the right option. We only found out at 10w. We’ve had an ultrasound where I wanted to be happy and excited during it but I felt like I couldn’t be. The sonographer wasn’t the best, we saw the flicker of the heartbeat and he told us it was 161bpm but he didn’t let us listen to the heartbeat. That ultrasound was at 11w5d, even after seeing that my partner said that just solidified even more that he isn’t ready at all. He isn’t ready for the change it will have on all aspects of our life, isn’t ready for the responsibility and commitment that comes with a baby, financially we aren’t ready at all. This year has been so shit to us just in the terms of everything! Nothing can go right for us, in the terms of life not our relationship - if you know what I mean. Our relationship definitely needs improvement though. Now just isn’t the right time for a baby, I agree with him on that.

But I don’t believe in abortion at all, I don’t think I could actually go through with it and then I also don’t think I could live with myself if I did it. He asked me this week how many weeks is the cut off for abortion and I told him 19w - which it is where I am and he said oh good we still have 7 weeks. We are also currently visiting his family this weekend for an early Christmas, and when we we’re on the plane he jiggled his belly cause he was a little bloated, I jiggled mine and said look at mine and his response was ‘yeah well you can just say you’re on your period’. I definitely cannot do this alone, especially financially. I know it makes him seem like an asshole but without going into detail about our situation and the shit life has thrown us this year, he is a really great guy and would make an amazing father. I have my NT ultrasound next week which I’m going to by myself and I am really looking forward to it! I really want to keep this little bean

We are both 27