Newborn, newlywed, newly moved.

LIfe is kinda nuts right now and I just need to rant.

My daughter (1st born) is 4 months old. I got married (expensive wedding) 3 months ago, and move back into my parents house with my husband and daughter a few days ago so we an save money for a down payment. We are living in the 3rd floor apartment.

We have gotten pretty good with being parents - learned how to handle that. Established the husband wife thing. But now it's soooo hard living with my parents. We are able to separate from them but they are still apart of our daily lives in some way. I had a rough childhood. My drs say I have PTSD from my father's abuse. I thought living here would be ok, now that my father knows I'll stick up for myself. But it fucking sucks.

And to top it all off I'm still dealing with/learning about my body post baby. I have painful let downs all the time and I feel that I am constantly covered in milk. Shit is just hard.

Im regretting spending so much on our wedding (I thought my husband had put money away but he didn't). If we did the wedding differently we wouldn't have to live with my parents. I HATE that I have wedding regrets.