Life...

My life is a mess. Let me be clear I am ranting to get this shit of my chest 😩

So, i finally had achieved my goal for this point in my life. Become a manager...the boss. I have been the boss for 6 months! Not i have to step down for my family. I have to step down to assistant manager because we need to live. We though my hubby could do uber around my schedule after his unemployment was up but insuramce is too high. Daycare isnt an option cause thats 2000/month for three kids. Not only am i having to step down but i have to start working 530 to close. Just to survive so both of us can work. Not pleased at all.

Then to top it all off i have fucken baby fever. My SIL just has a girl and she's so flippen cute. I get so sad i want to cry when i see her. I know i cannot have a fourth we cant afford it. But I have always wanted a fourth and it eats me alive that i wont be able to have another little baby😭

Thats my life glory and all. I appreciate still having a job and being able to put food on my table but the whole situation still SUCKS!!!

IM ALLOWED TO HURT