I hate the tww

I drive myself insane. Every little thing I notice about my body from ovulation to the day my period starts could be a ovulation/mittleshmirtz(?) Or implantation or gas or stomach bug or period or pregnancy pain/symptom. Which means theres only a few days a month I'm not in pain cos I notice everything. I test every day sometimes up to 3 or 4 times. My cervix seems to move up and down during the day but my google.search is more in depth than a gynecologists. I want another baby so much. I know im lucky I have one but it doesn't stop the need, the want hurting. I got told the other day by 9yo niece I'd better have one soon as I'm getting too old :( (im 28)

Why is it so easy for some people who accidentally have babies, it took me three years to get my daughter. I cannot calm down and just let it happen I don't know how to turn it off...

Sorry rant over, I just needed to vent.