God may be the reason for my divorce ...

Little back story, when my wife and I met, we both believed in god but didn’t really care to live life for him and go to church and have a relationship for our own reasons. A lot of m reasons were because I’m gay and my family told me I couldn’t be gay and a Christian. Well, I guess I pushed god away. But then in June I had a near death experience... through this 5 month journey, I’ve found myself building a relationship with god and realizing I can be gay and a Christian. Well, I now want to attend church at least 3 times a month. I feel as though god healed me and he plays a big part into me being able to get through this terrible time.

I told my wife all of this, and she just doesn’t know if she can accept that. Btw I’m not trying to force her to go or have a relationship with him. It’s solely just me. I asked her “if I was attending church regularly and living a Christian life when you met me, would you have married me?” She said “honestly, I don’t know but probably not.” My heart is broken.... I feel so hurt and devastated.

What do I do? I want us to work so badly but if it even possible?