Im just laying down rn and i was thinking about all my past relationships. When i was 14 almost 15 a sophomore in high school my first boyfriend ever was very emotionally abusive. He would put me down and make me feel very uncomfortable too. He would talk about sex all the time and all sexual stuff. We dated for three months only the summer going into sophomore yr to September beginning of sophomore year. I remember going on vacation and coming back around sept 5 and him and i went out. We were at a park and after we walked around he brought me to his car. While we were walking around all he was talking about was sex and so when we got to the car he kept saying that ppl in relationships do that. I felt obligated to do it since we were together so we tried but it didn’t work. Now that i look back on it i really didn’t want to and i remember one time him and i went bowling and before we went in he got on top of me in the car and tried forcing me to give him head when i started crying he asked what was wrong i said i didn’t want to and he still tried to force me. I feel like that relationship hurt me badly bc its been 3 years later im a freshman in college and i still think about it and cry. Also 2 months after we broke up his friend who went to my school assaulted me he tried forcing me to give him head too and then a few days after he came to my house and i told him to leave and he wouldn’t and he raped me. Ive been in therapy for years and i talked to my therapist about it but i still have things that remind me of it. I have ptsd i cant smell weed since he had the smell on him and i can’t smell the cream scent the tried using too. I don’t think i will ever forget what happened to me. Just wanted to put it out there. Does anyone have any suggestions that helped them if they’ve ever been through this. #metoo