I’m done trying

In the last year I have had 3 miscarriages very early. I am experiencing one now. I lost one in December last year, March this year and now. The dr isn’t sure why this is happening.

But I have decided I am don’t trying. It’s too hard on me; emotionally, physically, mentally. It’s hard on my partner it’s hard on our families. I have to stop holding onto this dream that I will be a mother. I’ve prayed to god to make me a mother. I have asked every higher spiritual being to help me and nothing.

I’m done. When my miscarriage is complete I will be getting an IUD. I don’t want to go through this again.