Bummed ☹️

I keep doing this to myself.

I took a pregnancy test and I swore I saw two lines and apparently I was wrong. I went to buy two more tests like good ones and it came out negative. I have a horrible cycle. I barely get a period. Spotting irregularly. But this time I really thought I could be pregnant and each time is a disappointment. I’m so tired of being disappointed. I get so depressed. This is all I want and I’ll be an amazing mother I know I will! Why me? Why do I have to go through this. Why do I have to take so many tests for 3 years it’s been full of negative tests. Every time it hurts me. Every time someone is telling me be patient it’ll happen but I’m giving up hope. My dream is to be a mommy and my dream will never come true. Please all I’m asking for is prayers. 🙏🏽