It’s been a while ..

I stopped living on glow app some months back. I was using it like it was my religion! I fell into a bit of depression each month that I’d suspect I’d get a BFP only to get a bfn 💔 I got emotionally drained of the monthly disappointment and having cycle buddies who would get their bfp and though Id be so happy for them I was still so sad for me ! I decided to stay off glow and positively say to myself “it’ll happen when it happens” I’m posting this today only because Today is my expected AF date and I usually spot a day before like a pink discharge almost , so I’ll know that the heavy flow will soon come as always on time 🙄. I guess I’m hoping AF doesn’t show her face but again it’s all I could expect 😔