I know I’m dramatic.. but is it just me?

Ugh.... my cervix is SHOW and got a positive opk the other day and I wanted to wake up my husband by going down on him and I went to go surprise him- and he woke up 🙄😂 so I continued trying to seduce him (knowing he had to go to work soon) and he, nicely, rejected me.. it’s the last day of my fertile window and I just wanted to BD oneeeee more time and I was actually in the mood for a quicky... I can’t help but feel like he doesn’t find me attractive or sexy anymore- he tells me he finds me hot, sexy , attractive but now my anxiety and depression gets the best of me. I know he probs wasn’t in the mood cause he’s going to work/just woke up but ugh just feelings down about myself now.... anyone else get like this? I know I’m being dramatic but my self esteem isn’t the best to begin with