i miss him... and idk what to do

I know no one cares, but I just need to get it out because I feel like I can’t breathe when I think about it. So like, I met this one guy at a marching band performance assessment. He had known my friend Laura from being in a different performance group with her, so that’s how conversation started. We didn’t talk much that day, but he gave a high five after we finished and it might sound crazy but I felt something. Anyways, later that night, we get back to the school and we’re packing up our instruments and props, (at abt 1 am) and he texts Laura and says something along the lines of “who was that light skinned girl who was with you? She’s gorgeous.” So, naturally she told me, and my heart skipped a beat. I’ve never really had a boyfriend and I thought maybe this is gonna be it. Everyone was so excited for me because he had told Laura he was going to text me sometime the next day. (he’s and senior and I’m a sophomore btw) I waited in anticipation for about half the day and he finally texted me this:

So, yeah that made me SO happy lol. Anyways, we talked from 5-10 pm that day. Just talking about life and getting to know each other and it felt like wow it’s really going to happen for me. Anyways, the story gets more interesting, so we talk for like a week and I’m like “so... when are we hanging out?” And we decided on hanging out on a Saturday at a roller skating rink. We agreed on 2-6. I get there at about 2:30 thinking I was super late, but he wasn’t there so I wasn’t worried. So, I wait about an hour and finally ask “hey, just wondering where are you?” And he apologized and said he’d be there ASAP bc he was helping his aunt move. I was like ok that’s reasonable. I end up waiting until 6, skating alone, with little service and waiting, bc he kept telling me to wait and it got to the point they were telling people they were closed for the session so I LITERALLY had to leave... So, I call him, and I’m like “it’s getting late and they’re closing so I’m gonna gooo...” and he was a little upset bc he made a “terrible first impression” and he said he was really sorry and ofc I said it was ok, not wanting to mess it up. Long story short, I invite him to 3 more events and he gets my hopes up and doesn’t show. Eventually, I’m getting more and more upset and my friends are telling me to drop him (in retrospect I probably should’ve bc it would’ve saved me heartache...) but I gave him one more shot, and he really did show up. It was our family and friend showcase for marching band, at our high school. After the performance, we just walk and talk for hours, just looping the school. He gave me his hoodie and held my hand, and those were a bunch of firsts for me. It was really one of the best nights of my life at the time.

(It was this hoodie^)

After hanging out that night, we were always talking. We talked EVERYDAY, and it was amazing. We would send pics back and forth and all that good stuff

Everything was great! We went on our first “date” on December 6th and it was truly “a magical night” I’m saying that is so cliche and saying it’s cliche is cliche, but it really was magic. I’m not gonna get into it bc it’s pretty fresh and makes me sad. Anyways, we agreed on 4 but I ended up waiting until 7, but that’s water under the bridge. So, he picks me up and we pull into this random parking lot (lowkey really irresponsible of me and pretty unsafe for a guy I had already seen once ikik) and he rolls the top down and we look at the stars and listen to Frank Sinatra and held hands and talked for hours. He kissed my hand and my forehead and made me feel really beautiful. He made every part of my body tingle and warm up. And he asked me to be his girlfriend, and I said yes. (This was about a month after we started talking) about 2 weeks after he started acting weird and more distant and he didn’t want to open up to me about what was going on at home. I still don’t really know... anyways, he sends this:

And it just caught me off guard. I know he’s going through it, so I tried to be nice about it even though it really honestly broke my heart. However, if we were dating, why would he even answer a text from his ex, much less video chat her and confide in her, rather than me. Maybe I’m crazy, but I miss him so much even though it wasn’t that long of a relationship. It hurt me so badly to see his posts. Even though we agreed to be friends and give each other space, I blocked him. Sometimes though, I unblock him to see if he texted... and he doesn’t😔 I don’t know what to do, am I just supposed to get over it and forget it?