I need help everyone !!! I am a Libra and as you know our least favorite thing is making decisions. So I’ve come on here to plead my case to the court and get a consensus.

I have recently came out as bi to my friends. I started dating my first girlfriend in the end of January and we had been dating til the end of October this year. During me and her relationship everything was new for me . No I didn’t tell my family about us, they are super religious and I feel as though it wouldn’t sit well with them but all my friends knew about us and anyone else who needed to know. I love her. I love her so much. When we are together I feel at peace. But when we are apart (she lives about 2 hours away from me). We talk on the phone constantlyyyy about any and everything. She had her own job , car , stable income . She helps her family with things . I never reach for my wallet with her and if I do it’s because she’s been too sweet already . The sex is bomb. But the fights are horrible , name calling, minor break ups , the whole deal. It’s draining to where the last 3 months we broke up every weekend. I my birthday was in October and me and her were in such a bad place I didn’t want to see her and I went to the aquarium with my ex instead. She found out I told her it was a fight she broke up with me. I immediately got back with my ex -> now Bf. My Bf now we have been on and off for 4 years. We met in high school and he is all involved with my family. We know everything about each other . I feel at home with him. I rely on his love and I know he loves me. He is my best friend! But their are things I believe a man should bring to the table for the future and I believe he has no motivation to progress in life other than playing video games every day. He hates his job but won’t go back to school to start working toward his career goal of being a police officer. I talk to him I try and motivate him to think he can do anything but year after year I see him no where closer to this goal. His mom even says she doesn’t see him working toward it or showing in confidence in the area. I know he is so smart and he can do it. But I feel as though I’m the one pushing and I will soon graduate from college with my degree. I want to make moves, build, save. But I would hate for us to get engaged and married and I’m stuck being his mom. Ask questions if you need more info 🧐