Craving my aversions

So over it. I am having an aversion to coffee and the second I take a sip I wanna spit it out and immediately throw it away. It tastes so awful. But at the same time I’m craving it. I make or buy one every couple mornings to see if the aversion has gone away and every single time I throw the entire thing away. But it’s all I can think about until I get it. I want one so bad and miss the morning routine of it and the sweet taste but my body is on a very different wavelength. I’m over it. And over wasting coffee.