Feeling kinda shitty

The past few night my Girl has been waking up more at night not for long times but I’m still not sleeping well. Then last night I heard the sad story about Brittani and her son so I was terrified and didn’t wanna go to sleep then again didn’t sleep well.

This morning I was hoping my SO would get up with her but no so I’m just tired and having a day and my girl was fighting a napand I was getting frustrated while also feeling shitty because all I could think is I need to cherish her because some woman wish they could still try to get their baby to nap. Now I’m holding her while she naps and I wanna cry