I delivered my first daughter vaginally with no complications. Recently I gave birth to my second daughter. Only things did not go as planned AT ALL.

At 38 weeks I got sent to do an ultrasound to check babys position. That is when the doctor found a massive amount of fluid build up in her brain. They said I would need a C section due to the size of her head (from the fluid). I had a panic attack in the operating room before prepping for surgery. Everything was so scary.

But a moms got to do what she’s got to do right..

My heart ACHES to say that my daughter passed away 8 days after birth. MRI found a massive brain tumor which was causing the initial fluid build up. Rip to my beautiful angel baby

In trying to expand our family again I am faced with these decisions. My doctor gave me the green light to try for a baby 3-6 months after my last birth. But then I would have to have another c section which terrifies me. Or I can wait 9 months then start trying for a baby in order to do a VBACK

Recovery after c section is horrible!!! So so painful. But my husband thinks it would be safer for c section rather than something possibly going wrong during vaginal delivery.

I need to make a decision so I can know when we should give it the green light to try to make a baby. Opinions on vbacks and c sections ??