My boyfriend lied

Me and my boyfriend have been together for now 10 years.

We have practically grown up together and have had our fair shares of fights. We broke up this year and still live with one another. We were definitely not having sex, or even hanging out. Only time we engaged was when we were fighting or paying bills.

We both felt it was right to break apart and find ourselves and to see if this is what we both really wanted, or which I thought was the case.

Me and my boyfriend worked everything out and these past couple of weeks have been great! we communicate better and overall just understand one another’s love language which makes it easier when talking and understanding one another’s needs. We also both realized our self love was low and the break was much needed.

Here is the problem..

We our late night food adventures having a great time when I open his middle console in his car and he quickly snatches a picture from me. Confused I ask let me see and after a back and forth he lies to me and says it us, obviously I’m not stupid and I now really want to see. he continues to lie, we enter in our home together where he finally tells me while we were on break he was dating lots of girls, and this picture is one of the girls.

My heart felt out my ass.

I was shocked I couldn’t believe it. He fessed to lying about where he was half the time and used working late or hanging with friends as an excuse. He said nothing sexual ever happened but nudes were exchanged and kissing happened.

He then goes on to tell me I shouldn’t be upset because we weren’t together, which was true. But I can’t help but feel betrayed and lied to.

He then tells me since I don’t trust him he is going to have to think if it’s worth being in a relationship with me since I don’t trust him.

Ummmmm?

Oh and here’s a kick!

3 weeks ago when we were actively having sex and together he was still in the dating app and texting other girls, but cut things off as soon as he purchased me an eternity ring and felt he knew I was the right one and didn’t feel the need to search for anything out there when I was everything he wanted.

I seriously feel crazy, and either wanted someone to validate I am crazy or let me know this fool is crazy, or has anyone been through this! I feel so confused. Help?