I know I’m stupid

Okie so my boyfriend is going to jail and it’s gonna suck but he doesn’t deserve me I’ve been loyal since day one and him you already know I live with him his family is my family they treat me like it he does really want to come to any of my family things besides thanksgiving and that’s because I cried about it he says he loves me an he wants to get a nice house with a farm when he gets out and hd wants to be with me but other days I’m his best friend and we aren’t dating he I freak out and cry he goes out and he has friend and he says it’s not like that but I know it is his mom called him one night and was like what you doing he said hanging out and she said on speaker does your girlfriend know he said it’s not like that she said bill shit you have a good girl at home waiting for you and you wanna go fuck some whore idk where I’m getting at idk what to do I love him and he loves me I know y’all are gonna tell me to leave him but when he goes to jail I hope he know how fucked up thy shit is I know he can be better it’s just went and I let it happen why is it because I fucking love him with my whole heart probably not im just stupid right he does little things like he pulled in to a corn field because he seen fireworks and he pulled him turned off his truck and played country music on his phone or I love taking pictures and all I did was look back in the truck because the sunset was beautiful and with out me saying anything we went a little muddin and he turned the truck around stop it just so I can take a picture this between us feel unreal like we think the same things happen we both have pretty much like telepathy like down to a fishing luar he asked me to get one and with out telling me what one I pick one that he was thinking of I don’t get it I love him so much what am I doing help