Miscarried but feel like attention whore

I have always been afraid of not being able to carry a child. And when the test came back positive and then I lost the baby I didnt know what to do. At first I convinced myself it was a false positive and that nothing happened but then the doctor confirmed it was an early tubal pregnancy that I had lost. I was in tremendous pain and the miscarriage was the only thing thatd make sense. I'm having trouble accepting it and I feel awful telling my best friends and family cuz I feel like I'm begging for attention. Like since it wouldve only been 5 weeks along I feel like I shouldnt be upset but everyday goes by and I think of it and I'm so depressed about it. My fiance was devastated as well but is trying not to show it and wont really talk bout it cuz he hates when I cry so he avoids it by joking around so I laugh instead... which helps but then again... it doesnt. And the only other person I told was a great friend of mine and when i got into it with his gf she went around and told everyone and said i used my best friends urine (she just had a baby) even though the baby was born by this time. But she doesnt know bout the miscarriage she thinks i was just faking a pregnancy test. Idk it sounds childish and crazy i just feel lost and begging for attention when really i want to do is talk bout it.