Goodbye 2019, hello 2020

I am so beyond grateful for everything God has blessed me with 2019 was one of the best years and also one of the hardest. I had my beautiful daughter in August of 2019 and Im very fortunate to have had a safe, most easy, 2nd pregnancy and birth, but through my entire pregnancy my boyfriend (father of both my babies) was terrible to me. He would call me mean names like fat, ugly, bitch, whore, the list goes on but I think y’all get the picture. Even on the day she was born right before we got to the hospital he had a huge fit because he wasn’t the one who drove me to the hospital. I was having contractions every 30 seconds to a minute and he wanted me to wait for him to get home from work so he could drive me to the hospital I waited as long as I could to please him but I couldn’t wait any long I felt like she was about to fall out of me so because I didn’t wait he again cussed me out and called me every name in the book, but fat forward to November and we got our first place together and then that’s when the mean names were followed by slaps, kicks, and punches. So by the grace of God I got out of there before anything more happened. He has threatened to kill me multiple times since I got away from him. He told me if I file child support he will have his friend, who apparently will do anything for money, kill me. So Iv just left him alone and so far things have been ok. I don’t really know if he would kill me or not if he was just telling me that to scare me but he has also threatened to kill me if I go to the police so as of now I’m just going to leave things be and just leave him alone. So now it’s just me and my babies were living with my parents, my little sister, and my little brother. My parents are helping me financially care for my children right now and I’m going to school. So I thought I would just vent alittle and see if you ladies had any positive or inspirational stories about how you’ve gotten out of a bad relationship and are happy now. Or just any positive stories. I truly hope anyone in an abusive relationship is able to get out of it and live a happy life. NO ONE deserves to be treated poorly and I understand it’s hard I was in one for 3 years. It’s so easy to believe that there going to change when they say they are, but it’s usually just lies and stories to keep us stuck there. I hope everyone has a great 2020! Happy new year!! He’s some pictures of my beautiful babies! ❤️