My husband and I found out Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> that we were expecting our Christmas miracle. We were both so excited.

Before the new year I had some cramping without bleeding and my doctor wanted to make sure our little bebe wasn’t ectopic. She drew my levels and had them redrawn 48h after. They were low and barely rose. My doctor called me and said be prepared to miscarry but I don’t know how to do that when all I can do is cry. The past couple of days have been such a blur and so emotionally tough.

On Monday I go for another level draw and an appointment with my doctor.

I wish our Christmas miracle would be a miracle but I know that’s not realistic. So here we wait, preparing to lose our little one.