The love of my life 🥺

For the past year my husband had been a little ill. He went through a point we’re all he did was throw up for like 3 months straight. Then, he would start catching headaches & now he’s losing feeling occasionally on his hands. He goes pale & sometimes his vision is blurry. Every time he would tell me these things or I saw him throw up or not look too well I would tell him let’s go to the ER & he would keep telling me “no I’m fine” idk why I didn’t push hard enough, but I just let it go.

Today, there were large amounts of blood in his stool while whipping. My heart has dropped. I’m so afraid that I didn’t pay attention to the signs and he may have cancer or something along those lines. His father was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer 10 years ago & other close relatives of his have had cancer or survived cancer. We have to go to the ER tomorrow, but hear is sooo heavy rn.

I’m currently 25 weeks pregnant and he’s the love of my life. If this becomes a reality what do i do. How do I handle all of this. I’m just so scared my worst nightmare is coming alive. He’s my best friend i will never love another man as much as I love him. 😥