Pregnant and not happy about it!

Okay this is a lot..

So I found out on Christmas that I’m going to be having a baby again. Now while any pregnancy whether planned or unplanned is a blessing and a gift from God.. I’ve found myself more down than up about it. My husband and I WAS NOT trying for this. And I am not a worrier about what other people think, but I think what’s getting to me is that I’m worried about what other people will think or have to say. Simply because I have been in school and going steady for over a year now. I’m Phi Theta Kappa Honor Society Officer, and Officer of a few other organizations at my school, I’ve held down my 4.0 gpa and higher since the very first semester, and I’ve been busting my tail to do what I have to, to get into Nursing School which I did, and start making an awesome life for my family. One that I’ve been held from for 12 years due to a toxic and abusive relationship that I was trapped in. And almost lost my life in on countless occasions. So hear I am in a new state in a new marriage and defeating all the odds places against me by doing exceptionally well in school and life. And BAM! Just like that, I am expecting. And I’m due one week before nursing school starts and I don’t want to have to leave my newborn only a week after having it (even though it’ll be at home with dad) but i also worked very hard to get to this point and I don’t want to have to wait another year before starting nursing school either. I have no friends or any family here and I just don’t know what to do. My husband is all in and believes I can do it cause I’ve conquered far worse and is so amazing and is rooting for me and telling me that I can do it and he’s just so proud. But I just don’t know what to do..