My baby is in the NICU everything was going so good and now everything is back to the beginning my husband is scared to have more kids ( this is our first baby) I feel like if I lose my baby imma be so worthless that I'm gonna leave my husband I wanna leave this world so bad I've been threw rape bullying and so many shit that I just cant handle this one I cant I dont wanna be in this shitty world anymore I'm done ..