Miscarriage

Found out I was pregnant May 28th, 2019 when I went in to have a pap smear. My doctor said when was your last period, it was sometime in April. It was almost June. Sent to do lab work and in home pregnancy test on the spot... Came back instantly I was pregnant. We were so happy, my fiance and I. Jump to 4 days later, I woke up at 6 am to go pee. Seen I was bleedimg and immediately woke my babe up. Rushed to er and waited like 6 or 7 hrs before they said oh everything is fine your baby os ok. Youre just not far enough to see it yet. I said I should be about 6or 7 weeks. Schedule me for blood work the next 2 days... My Hcg levels were 85 at ER. When I did blood work they said the results would be back in a days time. And if anything was wrong theyd call me and let me know. Well they scheduled another appointment with ob on june 18th. I take care if myself and do everything right and go to dr appt. And they do the transvaginal ultrasound and test. Test was positive. Ultrasound showed nothing. At that point dr said in sorry to tell you but you had a miscarriage when you went to the hospital bleeding that morning. That liked to have ripped me apart limb for limb. To this day I think of What my baby would have been, who it would of looked like, what kinda personality it would have. I cry and cry for days sometimes. I been ttc for a while and im hoping this month is my month for my rainbow baby.