God doesn’t want me to tell my parents I’m pregnant

So I’m 18. Been living with my boyfriend (22) for over a year. It was hard on my parents and it was disappointing for them when I moved out. They didn’t talk to me for months. It was a very traumatic experience for me which still haunts me to this day and creates anxiety and depression and guilt. We’re all super Catholic so the situation has both my parents and I torn in ways.

BUT my parents were way too controlling and protective over me which led me to making the impulsive decision to moving out with my boyfriend. We moved in with each other in knowing each other less than a year.

We’ve almost been together 2 years now and we have been super close and he’s been amazing to me since day 1. We both have an apartment together for almost 1 year coming up this March. I graduate este school in 6 days and I have a stable job for over a year as a high end spa consultant, and a guaranteed job as an esthetician there once I get my license soon.

I’ve gained my parents respect and they’ve come around to respect my boyfriend.

I found out I’m pregnant a while ago. I’m now 10 weeks pregnant. i know my parents will be extremely disappointed in me. And my mom is the type mom to sulk in her dark room and cry for weeks when stuff happens. Which won’t help me mentally at all.

I didn’t tell my parents at first because I was planning on it being after christmas so that I didn’t ruin Christmas for my parents. Then stuff just kept coming up. We kept having family get togethers, and then my parents anniversary is New Years and they took a Colorado trip. So I couldn’t tell them then. Then they got back and got the flu. So I couldn’t tell them then because I don’t want to potentially risk me and my baby’s health.

NOW my younger brother (16) just got put into jail a few days ago from school selling ecstasy and putting a couple girls in the hospital from taking 2 pills each. (They’re fine now) so he tested positive for drugs in his system so he might have to do drug rehab.

So I was resulting to telling my dad ONLY at the moment to get advice on my mother’s mental and emotional state rn (because she’s overly emotional and overwhelmed when disappointment hits her) I graduate in 6 days so for a graduation dinner between my parents and I I was gonna tell them then.

NOW I can’t result to my dad because this morning I got a call from my mom crying saying that my dads mom just died. So now my grandma is dead and i feel like I don’t wanna add this onto the pile of disappointment and sadness that they’re feeling right now.

what has me torn is that I’m on my parents insurance and not able to get Medicaid without them knowing. I was going to see about them using their insurance on me and my hospital visits. I’m 10 weeks and haven’t had one hospital visit except for a free clinic and ultrasound at 6 weeks.

Need advice.