Exhausted...

Feeling a tad bit exhausted today. I want nothing more than to conceive baby #2 (my son is 8 & I just turned 29 😩). My body has been taking me on an emotional roller coaster. In November I was testing for my peak fertile days & apparently they never showed up. (Or I tested too early or too late). 🙄 In December my period came a few days early unexpectedly after coming like clock work for months. NOW, here we are in January & Aunt Flo is a few days late. I refuse to test until I’m a week late, which is bringing me anxiety. I just don’t wanna see that BFN. I know it’s probably safe to test using first response or clear blue but I’ve been down this road before so I’ll continue to wait. But DAMN!