I not “IN” love with my man..

We’ve been going on 8 years. EIGHT years!! We’ve been together since we were 18. We’ve basically grown up together and have a 3 year old girl together. I’ve wanted to get married, wanted more children. I can’t even entertain the conversation with him. I’ve learned to clean, cook, fuck and everything to his liking.. still no ring. Now I’m to the point to where I don’t even care anymore. I’ve BEEN to that point.

I’ve lied to myself, saying everyone has their ups and downs. All real relationships are tough and take work. But I just genuinely believe we would be better apart and would even be better parents apart. The only thing we talk about are bills and our child. Neither one of us are financially stable without one another. Hell, we’re hardly even stable enough together. I just feel like we’re roommates at this point.

I’m pretty sure he feels the same way. It’s easier just to remain status quo. I know we love each other but come on, we’re not in love.

I really need to make a change. I need some motivation. It’s gonna be heart wrenching but this can’t be all there is for me. I’m 26. I at least deserve to be happier alone right?