Hello everyone

First and foremost I love God for God and nothing I say below changes my feelings or beliefs about him or his word.

Im just losing desire pray for things I want/need anymore. But I know we are suppose to. Gods will is different than ours and it's not exciting to pray for things knowing I may never receive them. I know I need start desiring what God does, but at any point will I just receive things that make me happy?

Had faith like you can't imagine, mom passed.

Family member needs major healing for years- nothing.

I been ttc almost 2.5 years and now am almost 40 and don't see how it can happen.

I've seen so much devastation among gods ppl.

I know we aren't in heaven yet. I get it.

There's so many positive stories and miracles in bible.

Im just losing hope and depression has greatly taken over.

Any words of encouragement or understanding or how to proceed?

Feeling blah

Thank you