Rocky pregnancy

I feel so alone with this pregnancy. it is my second and my boyfriend and I havent been getting along this new year. I have been so mean, rude and moody with this pregnancy.. and I know that doesnt excuse my behavior but today we got in a small fight and my boyfriend asked how many weeks I was and said "maybe you should get rid of it." those words broke my heart to pieces and I feel so hurt and betrayed. I have cried and cried, and here I am at my second appt with my midwife to hear the heartbeat and do blood draws and I feel so alone. I domt know if I can forgive him for saying that.. I know he said it because he feels like we arent getting along which is true. but he knew what our plan was.. and just because we have a fight doesnt mean you can say that. maybe he regrets being with me.. maybe I have pushed him too much but I feel so hurt and I cant look at him