Rainbow Anxiety Vent

Just got my BFP a few days ago. This is my second pregnancy ever. My first was a MMC but we didn’t find out until about 10 weeks in...it was so hard to recover.

1 year and 1 month after my d&c I’m finally pregnant again and I’m so anxious. I test every morning even though I know it’s not going to change anything. Every cramp makes my head spin with negative thoughts and emotions. I can’t enjoy sex even though I know it won’t affect anything. I’m even afraid to go to the gym or eat the wrong foods.

I thought I’d be happy again once I saw that second line but the reality is that I’m just as anxious as before. I try to take deep breaths and focus on something else, but it’s all consuming.

Please let this one stick. 😰