Posting anonymously please don’t judge

The last couple of weeks I’ve been feeling so depressed. Like as soon as the new year hit and I started my third trimester I have cried every single day, like sobbed. I don’t know if it’s just hormones or what. We’re due with our second boy at the end of March, I was so excited our whole pregnancy and now I’m honestly just dreading it. Dreading labour, delivery, recovery, sleepless nights, trying to take care of a newborn, a toddler and myself, I feel like I’m on the verge of a panic attack everyday. My husband wants to talk names, my mum wants to help wash clothes and I just want to pretend like this isn’t happening. We tried for TWO years for this baby, he is SO wanted, but I wish he wouldn’t come for like another 6 months but I also can’t stand being pregnant anymore. I feel like my first son is my baby boy and I’ll never love anyone like him, I know everyone says your heart just grows and you’ll feel silly for ever doubting your ability to love another child...but I dunno, I just don’t want time to continue to move forward. I also feel like because it’s our second, and especially being our second boy, no one cares. It’s like “been there done that” none of my friends or family check in or ask how I’m doing. I’ve never felt so alone and depressed. Anyone else? I know I should talk to my doctor, I might, I dunno, please just don’t let that be the only response to this because it’s just not helpful at this moment.