Embarrassing orgasms 😳🥺🥴

Okay so I feel like there’s different levels of orgasms that I can have and the highest level one for some reason can only be achieved if I squeeze my buttcheeks together & tighten up my entire body.. like my legs need to be straight and stiff lmao... do any of you ladies experience this? it’s the only thing holding me back from having a true orgasm when I’m with my partner.. I don’t want him to see me like that