Emotionally drained

On month 4 of trying to conceive. The past 3 months were quite hard everytime AF came around. Currently cycle day 24 and all my opk had been negative. I had convinced myself I missed my ovulation day and made peace with it. I was okay. I felt fine. Then I got home tonight and decided to take one last opk. It spiked. More than I had seen it all cycle. I got excited, there was still a chance this cycle! My husband had to start work soon so we decided to have a quickie before he left. He wasn't feeling well but decided to go ahead any way. This was the first time in the almost 11 years that I've known him, that he was unable to finish... he was tired and overworked.

I felt crushed. I had gotten my hopes up only to have them come crashing down once again. And I'm definitely not mad at him, it's not his fault. These things happen. It's just soul crushing that this entire process has to be so draining and exhausting.