flashbacks

I'm 13 so bare with me here. a couple months ago I crashed an ATV. i had severe burns and road rash. it took me maybe 4-5 months to get it not infected anymore. then another 2 months just to be able to wobble around on my own. every time I get in a car I feel like I can't breathe and on turns I gasp and relive that moment of crashing and all the pain comes back. and my family yell at me about it because it scares them. I have a huge scar on my leg and people stare at me. and ask about it. some say I crashed for attention and others say I crashed to kill myself. but the truth is, I was riding it in the desert. I was angry and needed a break. riding helps me. calms me. on my way back I crashed. I don't remember how. I remember waking up on the burning road and blood. god there was a lot of blood. I was 2 miles away from home and had to walk. all the way back. it's been almost a year now sense my crash and it's still- on me. it's still defining who I am. it's still. hurting me. I need help. someone to talk to. please.