So I decided that I am going to go for a walk,but I am not telling my boyfriend where I am going. I figured since he wasn’t talking to me then why should I let him know I’m leaving the apartment. I don’t care that I’m pregnant with his kid and I honestly am feeling so numb I need to get out this place. I’m here in this shithole everyday with no human interactions basically no friends or anyone to talk to. I’m frustrated with him because it has been so hard cleaning and bending. I asked him to clean the kitchen and he didn’t so I’m going to do that. I asked him to help clean the bathroom and he complains so I’m doing that as well. Basically I’m cleaning this entire apartment by myself I guess. So I need to have a few moments of fresh air before I get into the cleaning routine.

Honestly don’t know if he’ll even help with the baby at all. I’m looking for a better job and just save money for a car then my own place if I leave him. I’m so frustrated.