Okay I want an open discussion on your SO watching porn. I recently was on my mans computer (we share it) and I was looking for a website in the history to get my W-2 from my previous job (I had recently been on the website but forgot the name) well well well Low and behold PORN and so f-ing much of it. For like 3 days in a row he looked at porn and for HOURS one of the days I WAS IN THE OTHER ROOM SLEEPING. I was so upset and disgusted. I’m not dumb I know men look for a quick nut and need something to get them going but DAMN I feel like that was so excessive. I didn’t bring it up the night I found it, went out with my friends the next time and drunk texted him saying “am I not sexy to you? Why do you have to watch porn?” Well that night he came home from work and slept on the couch. We talked later that day and explained to him how I understand and I’m not judging him all I wanted is to get his view on it. I said am I not satisfying you, or do you want to try anything new? I even asked do you want to watch it together. I’m not one to judge by no means at all because from time to time I’ll watch it but it’s just to get me to finish so like 20 mins MAX not hours. He told me he was embarrassed and that’s it’s a habit he’s had since he was a teenager, he’s 30 now, and how he’s done it a lot less since we’ve been dating (a little over a year) and said that he’ll work on it and that it has nothing to do with me and that he loves our sex life and that he really only jerks off once a week(which I don’t believe) We have a lot of sex and do bjs and hand jobs almost nightly so I just don’t understand why it was so much. Basically saying everything I wanted to hear and don’t get me wrong he made me feel good and all but what bothers me is we had this conversation a few months back about a similar situation and I asked him if he’s watched porn since we’ve dated and he told me no. So in the most recent situation I asked him why he lied and he said he was embarrassed which I completely understand it just makes me not trust him as much. So I decided to look again just to see I know it’s not the best idea but he did and he cleared the search history which makes me feel better like kind of makes me naïve to it but I found his c*m all over the keyboard. Which is so gross to me, we share the computer and every time I’ve walked in the room it makes me feel gross. I don’t know what makes me keep thinking about this, but I’m still a little bothered.