3rd & final IUI 😔

Today was my 3rd & final IUI before moving on to IVF. I really just want these 2 weeks to go by fast and not obsess and pee on a stick every 5 min 🤦🏽‍♀️. I’m trying my best to stay positive & keeping my faith in the lord, but after 2 failed back to back IUI’s can u blame me? I was so ready to get this IUI done and wait for good news but, after having my IUI done I feel almost sad,upset, angry for some reason like so negative. I try praying and keeping a positive mindset but it’s almost as I’m just waiting to get my period instead of hoping to see those 2 dark lines I so crave for. Maybe I’m talking out of my ass right now who knows but I’m going to take it as it comes & start mentally preparing myself for IVF (Which I already have a consultation appt with my RE😬) this journey has truly been a struggle for real, Only God Knows Why.....