I need some kind of sanity, some support, advice, words of encouragement :(

Dani

Sorry for the long rant, but I’ve been really bothered lately. The father of my child has not made my pregnancy (12 weeks now) easy. He cheated on me about a week AFTER finding out I was pregnant. He missed our first ultrasound appointment and I am currently living at my apartment and he barely communicates with me. Now I am the most understanding type of individual. He has other children, which I know and I have no problem with, but they are above 10. He got angry with me after he cheated because I was angry with him. He claimed I needed to understand there are consequences for how I act in a relationship. I told him about our appointment three times in a week and also texted him about it and he was leaving the house to work (he is self-employed) when I had to go to my appointment. I was so livid about the appointment, I’ve been staying at my apartment when I normally stay with him. I had to go to the hospital due to stress because I could not control my breathing and I called him multiple times with no answer. Now he claims I must text him for him to answer me. I just feel like he’s cheating again and I wish I knew the truth and I could just stop wanting him to be in my life but this is my first baby and I want him there, not just financially, but physically. As time goes on, I made plans to move in with him to help with the baby but I’m just not sure with how he’s acting if I should just do this on my own.