I want my baby back

Feeling so down today!

Yesterday my so came back with the News that one of hit female friends is pregnant.

I had 2 losses , one that was not even a month ago.

And i am just so jealous, i want to be pregnant to.

I cant hold back my tears, i dont want to go to work tomorrow.

Just that empty feeling inside of me i cant deal with.

On top of all that i think my d&c wasnt succesful.

I am still testing faint positive (d&c was on Jan 3th)

I am lossing hope 😭😭💔💔