I just can’t anymore.

My sister and her husband have been ttc for three months and today she told me they are pregnant. She JUST found out and is only a few weeks along.

My husband and I have been trying since April 2017. I had an ectopic pregnancy in March 2019 and had to have emergency surgery. My sister wasn’t exactly supportive during that time.

I’m genuinely happy for them and wish them a safe and happy 9 months but I’m also crushed. I had a breakdown today and I’m trying to pull myself together.

I don’t know how I supposed to survive these next 9 months of my sister’s pregnancy. I know that sounds selfish but I wish I was pregnant so badly. 😭