I should pack our things.

I said I'm leaving. I have to leave. I'm miserable. But this is my home and my kids home and I dont want to. He is at work and I should be leaving but I'm paralyzed. I dont want to go. Keeping the house isnt an option. I'm a sahm. It's his. I just dont want to move in with my parents but I need to get a divorce. I dont know how to leave.